::Voice A: Examinations are coming! Oral Defense! BSP essay test next week!
Voice B: So? I want to sleep!
Right now, I listen to voice B more often...
Major causes of unhappiness for me recently. Starting from the top. My head. German exam’s over. A feeling of disappointment feels my head. Hmm..I studied hard for the exam. I put in effort to do well. All the word cards, readin german during history classes..I thought i have done enough to do well for this exam..I was wrong! When i wrote my essay, i did not know if I used past tense or future tense..When i read the passage, I hardly understood one full sentence.. A1? I bet i just got myself a C6..
What its my passion now? TRACK! My heart beats for track now..it no longer beat for cooking..reading..girls..not even SOCCER!(tell you why in a moment) You know, there are few things in your life that really stirs you up. Doing it, your heart takes over and you just love it. I love TRACK. One of the biggest disappointments this year was the Nationals. I had improved a tremendous lot this year. From the end of last year right up to nationals, I have slowly built myself up. Yet i fell short at the LAST HURDLE! sorta literally if you consider my 400mHurdles Final. I was the only HCI finalist and with all hopes on me, I fell short. I actually got a cursed flu before nationals that just did not go away. I had fever the weekend before my qualifiers. You know when you get this feverish flu, you dont just recover wif a mug of panadol. It takes TIME! So sluggish and without fitness, i started my race. However much my heart wanted me to go the 400m, my legs gave way half way through. I must have counted 3 finalists that took over me at the last 100m. I must have looked a big joke..7th place. I sworn it will be better next time. As much as I want to think of other things..this memory just keeps on buggin me.
This post is getting abit long? haha..so its time for our finale! lets get tot he bottom of all this shall we? My FEET! Yah, why is it a major cause of unhappiness for me recently? Besides being as smelly as ever, I now got a skeletal spur growing out the base of my BIG right TOE! Ya, a spur! Because of the many ramming from a soccer ball, I am suffering from a kind of anthratic condition, named Turf Toe. The repeated sprain and twists on the big toe had caused a spur to develop at its base. And believe me..it hurts. No more soccer anytime soon. sniffs..::

.:firestarter blogged on 4:14 PM:.
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::assembly was boring...so i went thru some corrupted files in my head...found this.
I walk..(i walk)..by faith...each step..by faith...i gona walk with you...every step i take..is a step of faith..if my god is with me...then who can be against me....
as i said..corrupted..incomplete stuff...just memories...
u u u.
screwed my german exam up...mayb not i screwed it up..but im juz now good enough i guess..the reading comprehension passage was completely incomprehensible to me..haiz... warum?! antwortet mich!
..there i sat alone..empty..n down....but i was not thinking about studies...::

.:firestarter blogged on 11:09 PM:.
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::Isnt it so fun to see someone you knew when you were both kids?
~[ Teeange Dirtbag - Wheatus ]
Do you still remember that gal in your class when you were in primary school?
You always peeked at her. You took great care to disguise it, but she just seems to catch your glance everytime you looked at her.
PSLE was the end and you both went separate ways. You were crestfallen till someone told you... that she had a crash.... on you. This must be fake..my lips began to shake. How does she know? Why does she give a damn about me...but now you are in separate schools many miles away.
You felt bad before...but now its worse...
Three years later...while you were just strolling around..someone came up from behind you and taps your shoulder..she called your name.. you know the voice..it rings a bell...but the face is not the same..you no longer recognize the face..she looks so pretty.. it is her.. but..
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This must be fake.. my lips began to shake..
How does she know.... who i am?
Why does she give a damn...about me..
Cause I am just a teenage dirtbag baby.. Yeah, I am just a teenage dirtbag baby..
Listen to iron maiden baby.... with me...
Ooohoooooo..
~[ Teenage Dirtbag - Wheatus ]::

.:firestarter blogged on 10:03 PM:.
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::YiKai aaa YiKai..
Just replying to your post, since you got pissed. Wanna noe why i put you in my "not-bother-about" list when it comes to TRAINING ATTENDENCE? You want to come, you are more than welcomed to come. You do not want to train? Don't come. And was it not you that started it? You were the 'recreational tracker', if i rmb correctly? which means you come to train as you wish..and you will not put in as much time anymore. Am i supposed to despair over every training session you did not come when YOU have already told me you have decided for YOUSELF that you can come to train as you wish?
Stanley, JiaXin, JueYing..Anyway, you still are welcome to come to training, have fun as long as you do not disrupt anything. You are my friend but dn expect me to jump with joy JUST FOR seeing you sitting around at training.
That sentence was just something i blurted out you noe? Chill and look at it in a sensible way. I still want you to come to training, but now i try not to get affected by your more-often-than-not absence.
oKay..so games is what you come to training for. How ironic you call us all selfish people. And how do we be SELFish to a group? there is oni a selfish person.
I dn see much selfishness in deciding what to play today. Wh n Yc gg for soccer. Yw want squash. Yc say he wn mind badminton, Zy want bball, jL wanted squash too. While you were threatening us that you will leave if we played soccer. You are one person, so is weihao, so is yuanchang.
so okay, looks lyk squash was popular. We checked that out first didn we? Squash courts were taken by the squash players. Badminton court was taken for their training. We are left with soccer? It was the simple and the only choice. Those that needed to go, i let them.
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"instead of playing a variety of games" which you assumed will be good for us all, you say we played the only game we are good at? you wn agree to playing anything except ping pong and badminton. We however, mostly played soccer, bball, but we also played badminton and pingpong to a lesser extent.
How many times have we played soccer, and how many times have you agreed to play for the team? Well apparantly the oni game you'll play is the one you want. Anything else, you are off..
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.:firestarter blogged on 10:53 PM:.
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::Festival of Sports is coming! woohoo...blaps..
anyway, mr.tok asked me to find some people who wouldn't participate in any of the competitions. These people can then be part of the organizing team..they would help with the running of the events. so those of you who would like to help run the events instead of participating...look for me?
..3am..n i am watching a rather boring soccer match...I hate to admit it but ManU is not playing any good. Fergie call it a 4-3-3...n yet they play more like a 4-5-1 with poor Ruud alone again. Hope this match does not end up in a draw...
when should we get a gf? mum has no opinion..L3 will say sec3....n DVT said...'university..year 2 or 3..' lolz...so stay focused on your studies everyone! Aim for the 1.00! =)::

.:firestarter blogged on 3:39 AM:.
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::TERM 4 STARTS!
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GU MIAO U WATCH OUT! I'll make sure you eat your words haha...n u'll be so livid, u 'll pluck your moustache out!
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how leh..EOY coming. MUG LAR! waa...what to do..so many subjects to study for. But i got a boost from Mr.TAN! he told me i might just get exempted for chemistry! weee....happy. Still need ACE for math and bio though..grrr...must be a mugger..must...must...but how can i be a mugger without 'u'? haha...dots..yah.irrelevant.
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arg..was so sleepy in school..watched tv y'day till 3am. haiz..the price to pay for a lil enjoyment..i slept at the terraces during flag raising lar! ji pai seh..luckily dere is coffee..mocha mocha...=)
worked in the gym today..haha...i tot no training le! then malu get reminded by sec1s dat still need to train! i couldn do stairs anyway..sick n sleepy.. worked on my armswing today..i think it is really useful to do the armswings exercises..lyk d ones whr u do d normal armswings but holding one dumbbell in each hand? yah..dat.
I want to spriiinnt...not slopes mr.tok..nt drills...just sprinting...haiz.
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but then again..muggin comes first! read read read...Chinese TEST TMR! Ultimate! Xie said she determines who get exempted for chinese based on dat test alone u noe? WEEPY! n dere's no wordlist to remember!? EVen BETTER! ..aye...but foo still gives english spelling list...dots...::

.:firestarter blogged on 9:24 PM:.
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::Sprinters, for you again.Plz read..
I juz watched this movie on Tv. 'Blue Chips' shaquilee O'neal starred in it. The movie muz be old..o'neal looked..thin.
its about this highschool basketball team. Dolphines. They had been unbeatable for the past decade or something..but now this team is not good enough anymore. They had their first losing season, and the media is calling for the sacking of the coach.. Other schools who had bought their athletes with illegal payments are catching up. So does the coach follow suit and buy athletes or does he stay true to his values? Eventually, being so down-to-earth and innocent, he chose his values. He said his best season was the losing season. For although they lost, his sons(referin to his team, no reference to his productivity) played their hearts out. They did all they can do, but it was just not good enough for anyone. But he loved that team anyway.
That is what I wish for in our sprint team, u get me? Yah, you may not be the best sprinters. Yah, so what if we can never be counted on to win the Track n Field Titles..I still want us to train diligently and stay commited to the team. If you are running below expectations, that is bad. But you don't pack up and say yah, i've had enough of this, im not going to get first, then i QUIT. As much as sprints is a individual event, we still compete as a team. You cant win with just one sprinter? SJI got yusof, they nv won anything. It is the many good athletes that we have that make the difference. They are the many athletes that know they won't get trophies but still train their hearts out, even just to contribute one point for our school.
No one will fault you if you had trained your heart out and really have done your best. How many throwers are there? and only 3 or 4 of them compete in one of the few events. How many throwers have quit? I don't lyk this bullshit about quitting sprints..when you think about throwers' commitment, it is embarrassing.
Track training is not just about results. It is also about learning to accomodate each other. it's about being ready to push yourself over your physical limits even in training. Most importantly, its about commiting to the team, to track, to sprinting. Even when you are not the fastest, the amount of effort you put in must be among the most. And you persever, you do not give up, so only in the end, you will look back proudly and say 'i have done my best, and i have no regrets.'::

.:firestarter blogged on 11:16 PM:.
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::o alrite..juz have to drag me back to dis topic again... u ppl...
Btw..enlarged d font le...so no nd to squint ur eyes.ya.
firstly if my previous entries showed me as proud, attitude, bastard. well...SOrry.
i wn deny im a lil proud but certainly nt attitude bastard.
ya, im proud abt wat i can do on d track. i trained hard for 3yrs for it. i didn get to compete in sec1, nor in sec2. I wasn even registered as 'RELAY ONLY'.
I give my all in every training session and if you do not, it offends me. Especially when you are not one of the fastest. it infuriates me even further if you start disrespecting your seniors.
juz fyi, d jueying guy i told to 'prove yourself on d track first' hasn been the most hardworking sprinter i noe. he's not the slowest, but certainly one with the worst attitude. He openly tried to walk out of training sessions when the coach was not around..n even slept in the library when the rest of us were training. he isn a councillor..he dn hv a second ep3..he dn live in tampines..he's nt modest..(we're nt d worst enemies yet..he's still nice occasionally.=)
n zhenyang, i dn hv anything against you as long as commitment is concerned. I appreciate your attitude and desire to improve so i dn understand y we need to get into this arguement at all. Although u must work on your relationships within the team. n ya, ur pissing me off by making judgements on the team when you hvn been training wif the team so far.
as for those wif mayb wat u c as wif worse attitude...namely St n JX..they at least have kept their mouth shut. they know what they deserve for not being in trainin and they dn step over the line.
~Hmm..mayb your comments show that you care about the team afterall..haha...okay..if dat's d case im v happy le.~

CAN WE JUST FOCUS ON TRAINING AND IMPROVING OUR TIMING?
LISTEN, LETS PUT THIS ASIDE UNTIL SERIOUS TRAINING RESUMES. I DN WANT ANYMORE CONFLICTS WITHIN THE TEAM. IF NOT, I'LL CALL A TEAM MEETING TO SORT THESE OUT. N DAT IS VERY UNNECESSARY.

P.S.stop taggin my board arguing about track stuff. if u hv to, talk to me face to face. if u cant find me...CALL...::

.:firestarter blogged on 11:45 PM:.
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::i am tired.. tired... tired..
Ortus night rocked kay. 3K rocked the class performances la. Obviously the funniest and most entertaining performance. Our Ad-Skit was really the best..although some Ads r getting abit old..ya.another funny one was definitely d on-the-spot performance of Thomas n Ernest! haha..i wonder how they think up of something so fast lar. v impressive.
Guess what i did after Ortus Nite? Ortus movie trilogy-marathon! three EXTENDED versions of LOTR! rite thru the nite..all d way till noon the next day.
now im juz brain dead..cant beat anyone at minesweeper flags...cant think of what to blog...cant study...cant read...grrrr...this suck..but still can watch TV..=)..ya man..life rocks~!::

.:firestarter blogged on 12:27 AM:.
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