::The teachers can never teach us anything we do not want to learn. This year, I had always wanted to be a councillor. Maybe not as the all-important president, maybe not even as a OS of a school-based event, but just maybe i can be a small yet active councilor among the many elites.
I did not want to join because I am suited to be a councillor, but exactly because of the opposite. Precisely because growing up I have never been outspoken and even been somewhat self-pitiful, that I have the desire to be a councillor. I have learned alot and changed very much this year. To eventually be a councillor, seemed the ultimate gratification to me.
Thus with that I took the first and possibly the last opportunity I came across in high school, and applied to join the high school council. Even till now I have little knowledge of the HCI council, never mind the High School Council. It was an act on impulse. It was just a careless thought that gave me an impulse until I formed a belief that I should join the council, simply because I needed to be councillor to improve myself and just be better. The end result was that I and all other applicants were called to this High School Council Selection Camp.
So we come to today, after 3 days of council camp I have come to a realization. I do not want to be a councillor anymore. No doubt, the council will still benefit me if i joined. Thorugh this camp, I already learned alot. The things I learned cannot be covered in textbooks, not in council handbooks, nor be experienced on your own as a normal student. It was council stuff..true stuff that only being a councillor will you experience.
I have become even more mature about my goals and my purpose as a student. I feel completely at home in HCI now..and I have a clear path I know I should take, if I wanted to improve myself. During the camp, they told me it is not about the teacher teaching, but rather if you yourself was learning. What I needed, I do not have to be a councillor to receive.
One of the main reasons I wanted to go into council was the fact that I can improve myself, my records and perhaps finally get myself a scholarship. Yet I had failed to think for a moment why the council would want a person like me. Yes the council wants to provide leadership opportunities for students. However, at Sec4 and with the High School council, they are really looking for elite councillors to help the council. They definitely have no interest in a student tied down by studies, track, third lang, and one who refuses to put council as his first priority.
How true when my dad's intereview book kept onr stressing an interview is a two-way process of exchanging infomation. This camp is like an interview. They have learned about me and given me feedback. I also have learned about the council and has now decided this job is not for me.
No matter how much I have opened up since sec1, I still have a long way to go. The main explanation for not joining the council would have been that now I do not feel ready. If I needed leadership experience. I have an obligation to do well for track, for sprints. Rather than tying myself down to another commitment, the free time I can squeeze out of next year will enable me to go on my own learning projects and do as I wish.::

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