::ARGH!
o.o I feel as if I got hit by a truck..
I still remember vividly.. mr.koh answering a casual 'no' when I asked him if there's a 'Lin Chen' on the list of STP students. I went into grieving mood from that second..
stages of grieving include.. rejection, bargain, anger, acceptance.
I thought it couldn't be. So I squeezed into the crowd to take another look. Again broke my heart.
I thought there must be someway out of this. Perhaps it was an error? Perhaps I can still get in if I appealed? Maybe I will get in during the second intake? I bargained.. with a imaginary person. I will study hard for the test if you let me into STP! please.. though I don't even know if it is my performance in the selection test that failed me..
next is anger.. I got angry.. sad and desperate. WHY? why did I not study harder? why am I left out? why should I be left out? why did I think I'll get in? I was angry at myself.. at STP.. at Mr.Koh.
Then I should move to acceptance.. but I have not. Talking with people on msn brought me closer to it though. I keep telling myself.. STP is not everything.. So what if you are denied entry.. so what if you are not the top 60 science students? You may not be suited for STP afterall. I still can do PCMKI and I still can pursue a medicine or research career. STP does not represent success. The only road to success it certainly is not. It may not even be the right path for me.
Question is... which path is right for me then?
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.:firestarter blogged on 8:24 PM:.
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