::I AM NOT HAPPY! =< I want that change to THE STP BIO class.. Not sure if it will make me forever happier.. but let's focus on what is making me unhappy first, k? =[
1.MATHEMATICS!!!!
ARGH. I HATE IT. o.o I am not giving up on it, but it is just so damn hard! Understanding math is almost.. almost impossible. First personally I see no usefulness in terms of mathematics. Engineer? NO(we'll get to that later..) Math teacher? NO!! Accountant?? NOOOOO...! In a nutshell, my brain cannot appreciate numbers and arithmetics! Falling in love with numbers? It sounds like a nightmare! O.O (This doesn't justify changing to a bio class though.. read on..)
2.PHYSICS.
I do not hate Physics. Afterall I seriously considered taking physics and hence my choice of taking physics for both STP and SRP tests. Two horrible decisions. I failed miserably compared to most Physics students/PRC Scholars. Concepts-wise I am fine. I am apt at doing simple mathematics too. Knowing mathematics will feature prominently later on though, it is most unprobable I will ever take up Engineering where most physics student ends up in. One more thing I've realized.. I don't hate physics does not equal to I like physics. Enough said?
3.My class!
I like my class! It is.. moderate, relaxed, decent and friendly! haha.. We are supportive of each other and have our own share of fun and laughter. Even then.. we are facing an inevitable break-up. You see.. KI students are mixed with H1 Econs students in my class. Usually nobody chooses H1 Econs.. Hence when JAE comes, most of them will appeal either to upgrade to H2(3H2 ppl) or to drop it completely(4H2 KI ppl with econs as H1). The class will practically be gone by JAE and with the class goes my 'home' for the past month.. Head for pastures anew or stay..?
4.NEW THINGS!
Another realization.. I am actually very conservative! I like to try things out but I hardly takes in anything. It takes a while for me to accept something as my own.. for example.. I only eat at a few canteen stalls.. I like to sit at the same place when eating/studying.. I am not happy if I am not comfortable.. and old things make me comfortable. =] (This has nothing to do with why I want to change class.. but.. wth..)
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I've sent in an email to mr.koh again..
let's wait and see..
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note: this seems a good example for the debate on foreign talents. The oversea scholars in Singapore are virtually in a different league in terms of their mathematics and physics abilities. Their prescence promotes healthy competition? hardly.. they're more or less monopolizing subjects like mathematics and physics. Who care to challenge them in their fields anymore? Their prescense demoralizes locals and prompt people like me to give up our fields and take a different career path to avoid them.::

.:firestarter blogged on 4:07 PM:.
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